Same Sh*t, Different Day?

Jun 9

Are you stuck in a negative pattern or cycle?

Have you ever asked or said to yourself…

“Why does this always happen to me?”
“This happens a lot to me.”
“Why do I always feel this way?”

If you’ve ever found yourself asking these questions, you may be bumping up against an old emotional wound—a negative cycle surfacing in your awareness, inviting you to heal.

A few years ago, I found myself asking this question again: “Why does this always happen to me?”

I was about to start a project that had me deeply excited. It felt aligned. I’d be supporting the launch of a new business in a consulting role while also offering my Positive Psychology and Hypnotherapy sessions to clients. It was a hybrid role that brought together many of the things I love most.

Then, just a week before I was set to begin—I got sick. A persistent cough took over, and no matter what I tried, I couldn’t shake it. I was frustrated, disappointed, and confused.

Then the words left my mouth: “Why does this always happen to me?”

In that moment, I paused. Instead of brushing the thought away, I chose to sit with it. I asked myself, When else has this happened? And sure enough, a clear pattern emerged: I had gotten sick—specifically with a horrible cough—right before important milestones many times before. Before major speaking engagements. Before big trips. Before high-stakes meetings.

Each time, I had been preparing to step into something I truly wanted—something I felt excited and ready for. And each time, my body had seemingly betrayed me.

With gentle awareness, I turned inward and invited the Holy Spirit to show me where this pattern had begun.

What came up surprised me.

I was transported back to my 14-year-old self, the year I was diagnosed with Tuberculosis. For months, I had been misdiagnosed and was wasting away—down to 84 pounds, coughing violently, unable to eat, and slowly fading. By the grace of God and the insight of Dr. Wang in Corpus Christi, I finally received the right diagnosis and treatment. I am certain that without him, I would not be alive today. To this day, I hate to cough—it’s etched into my memory as a sign of danger, fear, and helplessness.

But the physical trauma wasn’t the only thing I was carrying.

At the time, I had been looking forward to attending the prestigious John Newcombe Tennis Ranch in New Braunfels. I was an avid tennis player, and this camp was a dream—a chance to develop my skills alongside players from around the world. But even after I began to recover, the news came: I wouldn’t be able to attend. It was too soon, and the medical bills had made it financially impossible.

I was crushed.

And that’s when the deeper wound took root:
“I don’t deserve what I truly want.”
“I am not worthy of good things.”
“Something always goes wrong when I get close to joy.”

The cough wasn’t just physical. It was a manifestation of an old, unhealed belief system—one that had been shaping my experiences without my conscious awareness.

Once I saw it clearly, I allowed myself to grieve. I cried for that young girl who felt robbed of joy. I cried for the woman who had unknowingly carried that belief through the years, sabotaging herself just when life was about to expand. I honored the emotions and let them move through me.

Then, I invited the Holy Spirit in to help me heal—and it did.

That experience shifted me deeply. It gave me insight into the Spirit-Mind-Body connection and reaffirmed the need to approach healing holistically. I realized that emotional and spiritual trauma—especially the kind we endure in childhood—can stay buried until we’re truly ready to face it.

I didn’t know I was still carrying that.

Now, when I get sick or experience resistance before a big opportunity, I don’t panic or spiral. I get curious. I consult with my Spirit. I ask: What’s surfacing? What part of me still needs love? I call this the integration period of healing—the space where we practice new patterns, respond with love instead of fear, and choose differently.

This is what the H.E.A.L. framework is all about:
Harnessing Emotions with Awareness & Love.
Not forcing. Not fixing. But seeing, feeling, and choosing with compassion.

If you ever find yourself saying things like:
“Why does this keep happening to me?”
“This always happens right when things get good…”
“This feeling again—what is it?”

Pause.
Ask: Why?
Then ask: Where was this born?
And most importantly, invite your Spirit in to show you the truth.

Healing isn’t a one-time event—it’s a lifelong journey of remembering who you really are beneath the pain, the patterns, and the old programming.

If you're ready to begin or go deeper on that journey, I’d love to support you.

You can schedule a private session with me—or join my upcoming masterclass:
Awaken Your Inner Healer
🗓 Tuesday, June 17th
🕕 6:00–7:30 pm CST via Zoom

In this live session, I’ll guide you through how the H.E.A.L. process works in real time—and how it can help you release what no longer serves you so you can step into the freedom, peace, and joy you were always meant to experience.

Because sometimes, what you’re carrying isn’t even yours to hold anymore.